I have been back in Krabi for over one month now. I have good days when I am a bit manic and bad days when I am a bit depressed but somehow I am muddling through. I am trying hard to keep up a good routine but sometimes it just doesn’t happen. I try to make the most of every day, whatever mood I happen to be in.
Last week was very busy. I had to finish my TMA03 for my Creative Writing module and this one was a big challenge – poetry! I have never written any before but happened to find it very cathartic. Check out my poem about coffee:
Arise and smell the delicious sweet scent
of coffee concoction, from the heaven’s sent
dark and desirable, brewing up a storm
wake me oh wicked one, so dreamy and warm
don’t drink too much of the madness and mania
you should shun the sugar and avoid being crazier
make mine quite milky,
luxurious and silky
a lovely little latte,
the iconic iced coffee is great at a party
a cup of cappuccino but spare the sprinkles please
an excellent espresso is sure to meet your needs.
I learnt a great deal and worked very hard so now just have to wait and see what mark I get! I have started a little bit of work for my friend Nikki on her blog thailandtravelbag.com and am enjoying learning all about social media. I learnt an important lesson about usage rights for pictures too! I went to a few parties this weekend just gone and so am a bit tired now.
It has been two weeks since I returned to Thailand and it’s been harder than I thought it would. Just getting used to the heat alone! It’s been great to have mum with me and amazing to be reunited with my husband. We first spent a week in Bangkok with Tams family and then came to Krabi after that. Mum has stayed with us all this time and we just dropped her off at her favourite hotel, Grandmom Place tonight. Whilst in Bangkok we returned to the Bangkok Hospital and saw Dr Birth there, the director or the psychiatric department. I was very ill when I last saw her so it was nice to have a normal conversation with her! Bieng in the hospital again was really strange. Just the smell alone took me right back to that time. Some of the nurses came to say hello to me but I didn’t really remember them. Since we came to Krabi mum and I have been going to the beach every day and I have slowly started to see my friends again. I have had time to catch up with my studying and try to regain some order in my house. Everything is in a different place and a lot of stuff is missing. We joke that it is ‘down the toilet’ as I threw a bunch of stuff down there when I was ill. It’s no joke that the toilet doesn’t flush properly though. We need to get it fixed soon. After my first day in Krabi I felt quite agitated and stressed and was still awake at 3am so I took one of my prescribed 5mg diazepam and slept fine after that. Some people have said that I am quiet and this makes me sad as I feel like maybe I am not being my real self. In all honesty, even though I am off medication now, I do not feel 100% myself. But then I am still recovering. Coming here has made me realise that. It will take time and I just have to take one day at a time. I had a really great face massage at Naree last week. It was so relaxing and rejuvenating. It gave me inspiration to write an article for my favourite website, Buzzfeed. I also just learnt how to make a gif so it was super fun putting it all together. It’s called 22 truths you will know if you have ever experienced mania.