I can’t believe it’s been two months since I wrote my last blog, ‘counting the days’. I have been so busy and the days have completely flown by! I now have no longer to wait and will be leaving in less than 48 hours!! The last two months have been hard, preparing to go back and wondering what will await me when I go there. I was quite depressed for a while thinking all the ways of how it won’t work. But now I feel really positive. I am all packed and ready for another adventure. Except it will be a sober one this time. My mum is flying out with me and we will stay in Bangkok for a week until we fly down to Krabi. I can’t wait to be in my house again but I think it might be strange at first as the last time I was there was in the thick of my breakdown when I was trashing the place and hula hooping naked in the living room. I don’t remember much of that time and I’m scared that the memories will come back when I am there. It is going to be so good to see my friends and family again and, of course, my husband. Being apart from him for a year has been heart breaking but it may have done us some good, who knows?
Christmas and New Year was lovely spending time with the family and I had my leaving do last Friday, fulfilling my five year long ambition of singing Whitney Houston ‘I will always love you’ on karaoke at The Priory (that’s a pub in York, not some rehab clinic), with a little help from Zoe. It was sad saying goodbye to everyone but I had a really fun night.
Yesterday the devastating news came that the legend and idol that is David Bowie has died at the age of 69. I am a massive fan of his and was very sad to hear this. I did an online test to see what Bowie was doing when he was my age and at 34 he had made ‘Under Pressure’ with that other legend in the sky, Freddie Mercury. It also just happened to be in 1981, when I was born. That is definitely one of my favourite Bowie songs. I have been hearing a lot of quotes and lyrics since yesterday from the man himself and I feel this one sums up things pretty well for me right now:
“I don’t know where I’m going from here, but I promise it won’t be boring.”