This week I have been feeling really depressed. The realisation of what has happened is starting to sink in to my delicate brain. I’ve had a massive mental breakdown. Just six months ago. I’m still recovering and I need to give myself a break. It’s just so frustrating. I want to get back to normal life. So I discovered breakdowns can actually have a positive effect on your life by reading this great blog from the tiny buddha.
“Breakdowns can create breakthroughs. Things fall apart so things can fall together.” ~Unknown
I’m not suggesting everyone should take magic mushrooms and become psychotic but if you have suffered a breakdown in your life (or are going through one) there is hope and light at the end of the tunnel. I’m still on my journey through that tunnel and sometimes the light gets really dim and I start to feel claustrophobic and helpless. I know that I have truly amazing friends and family that I can turn to. They proved massively how much they love me when I really needed them. There’s no need to be alone. But it’s so hard to be motivated sometimes even to get out of bed or have a shower. I have to keep in mind my goal of being back in Thailand with Tam. A lot of my problem is boredom. I have nothing to do to keep my mind busy. So, I have been applying for some volunteering positions in York. It’s not easy to apply, similar to applying for a job but I have managed to get an interview next Wednesday so wish me luck! I also have my medical review next Thursday so tune in next week to see how I got on with these two exciting progressions!